This isn’t a real blog post. I just want to state that up front. I know it’s been ages since my last one (if anyone’s counting) and that one was about a bunch of feels and I should probably follow it up with a really good one. But I’m not. You’ve been warned. 🙂
A few weeks ago, I had to update my Ruby version twice in a 3 week period. Both times I had to look up how to do it (I love having an exo-brain called Google that means I don’t have to remember every single thing), and both times I didn’t find everything I needed to know in one place. Talk about frustrating.
This was written a couple of weeks ago, when I started a new personal project after taking a few weeks off from coding:
I started building my new Rails app today. Man, am I rusty! I had to look up how to create a new app, generate models, create routes, all of it. I suppose I have only done it a couple of times before, so I shouldn’t be too hard on myself, but I’m feeling a bit like a fish out of water. And without the ever present comfort of EDA instructors hovering nearby to help whenever I get stuck. How will I do this all by myself?! At least there isn’t a deadline, ‘cause this is going to take a WHILE.
But to look on the bright side, at least I’m back at it. The band aid has been torn off, I’ve dived right in and as slow as it may go, I am on my way. One step at a time. Trying not to get ahead of myself by thinking of next steps and worrying, ‘Shit, how am I going to do that? Or that? or THAT??’ I’ll deal with those things when I get there.
The best part is that despite feeling tentative and unsure, I am really, really glad to be coding again.